I was.

I was afraid you'd hit me if i'd spoken up
I was afraid of your physical strength
I was afraid you'd hit below the belt
I was afraid of your sucker punch
I was afraid of you reducing me
I was afraid of your alocohol breath

I was afraid of your complete disregard for me
I was afraid of your temper
I was afraid of handles being flown off of
I was afraid of holes being punched into walls

I was afraid of your testosterone.

I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and I've kept mine bubbling under for you

I was afraid of verbal daggers
I was afraid of the calm before the storm
I was afraid for my own bones

I was afraid of your seduction
I was afraid of your coersion
I was afraid of your
rejection

I was afraid of your intimidation
I was afraid of your punishment
I was afraid of your icy silences
I was afraid of your volume
I was afraid of your manipulation

I was afraid of your explosions.

I have as much rage as you have
I have as much pain as you do
I've lived as much hell as you have
and I've kept mine bubbling under for you.